The worst part.
When I first choose it... I loved it, I was passionate about it, I was ready to give it my all... and now... I regret giving it up... no... I regret still hanging on to it... neither giving it up nor trying to achieve it... where did it all go wrong?? How am I supposed to make it right?? How was I... 3 yrs ago?? what did I do, how did I live, how did I spend my day... How am I supposed to fix it??
Should I give it up?? but no... I loved it... and I've been hanging on to it for 3yrs now... but I'm not even trying... ik its not gonna work this way... but...